“Sow for yourselves justice,
reap the fruit of piety;
break up for yourselves a new field,
for it is time to seek the LORD,
till he come and rain down justice upon you.”
On the days when I have time, scratch that, make time, to do the daily readings, I tend to be struck HARD by a piece of scripture. I realized this past Sunday that it’s because I’m really spiritually dehydrated.
Thus, every time I hear God’s word, I’m like WHOA. Which is kinda cool, but also pushes me to make more time for God.
I wanted to DO something for my students. More than an “aw, that’s too bad.” And I am. I’m also quickly realizing how small one person feels in this battle. How useless, some days. I’m glad that the grossly delusional days are over and that I have a better understanding of how difficult this struggle is.
In days when I am just really frustrated with my efforts or my students, I can remember this verse. Break up the new field. Just do it. And keep persevering until God comes down and takes over. Because He’s working through me as I continue to cultivate my relationship with Him.
That was something I had to remind myself the first week when I realized how badly I sucked. God is having me grow at this pace for a reason. He doesn’t call the perfect, he perfects the called.
So, here I go. Continuing to project that enthusiasm and endless zeal that stem from a love of God and a desire to do His will.
Peace & blessings